Gilly wrote:
I agree that time seems to be rushing by. But I do remember adults telling me when I was a kid that time seems to go faster and faster when you grow up, so I'm not sure if it's anything more new & dramatic than an effect of ageing.
I can pick up on 'atmospheres' amongst people, but this isn't like that.
For as long as I can remember, right back to when I was very little, I've had this odd experience happen from time to time. It's always when I'm on the verge of sleep, and am very tired, and it's quite difficult to describe.
It starts as an intense, fast buzzing in the top of my head. It actually hurts when it first starts - it feels like a buzz saw passing over the top of the brain. Then it spreads & fills my heads, and feels like a fast vibrating going round and round inside. After a bit, the sensation spreads and rushes up & down inside my whole body. It feels like something rushing up & down and round & round just underneath my skin. It's an extremely powerful sensation, which is frightening, and feels like it's building to some kind of crescendo.
Except that through fear, I've always resisted it, willing it to go away and tensing my muscles. Whenever it subsides, as soon as I relax completely to try and sleep, it comes back again, so when it happens, I spend the whole night awake, and get up the next day completely frazzled.
It's occurred to me that it might be some kind of epileptic seizure or similar, but I don't know why I can make it die away by focusing on resisting it.
I spoke to my mum about it a few years ago, and she reckoned that if there's anything there that you don't want there, you should say The Lord's Prayer (even though she knows I'm not Christian, but I do understand the energetic power of such things) and instruct it to go in peace with God.
The next time it happened, I took her advice, and for the first time ever, it just stopped in its tracks and I had a peaceful night.
But then, the next time it happened, about 5 years ago, being over-tired & bad-tempered, I did the same thing again, but adding, "In fact, fuck right off and don't ever come back again". It did fuck right off, and never has come back again.
The problem is that since then, I've read a lot about controlled / conscious astral projection, and it seems that the sensations I'd been having are well documented as being the process of separation of the physical and etheric bodies. So I want to do it, and to actually allow it to reach its crescendo, so that I can experiment with it. But it's stopped happening, even though I've done quite a bit of energy work in the form of meditations (pillar of light & such) & Reiki. It just won't happen!
The reason I mention this experience is because I've been having a different, but similar one quite a bit lately.
Again, it's when I'm relaxed, ready for sleep, and it starts the same way - with a fast vibrating sensation that skims through the top of my head a few times, uncomfortably, before settling in.
Each time, I've felt pleased, thinking it's the other thing, and I'm finally going to follow it through, split from my body & take off exploring.
But instead of the buzzing going round and round, and building throughout my body, it's not the same - it just feels like a vibration that fills my head and then sinks as far as my chest & arms - lingers about for a few minutes, then disappears.
I dunno what it is, but I wondered if it was anything to do with the energy 'thingy' that people are talking about. I can't say I feel any different for it throughout the day. I wondered if anyone here had felt anything like it?
Sensing atmospheres is something I’ve had experience of. On a few occasions when I was younger I was able to avoid scenes of violence because I was able to sense them coming.
On at least two occasions I knew even before I walked in to a pub that there would be violence there so I haven’t gone in. Later I would learn from chums that it had ‘kicked off’ with half an hour of them being in there. I need to stress that this wasn’t me walking in to a place and picking up a bad vibe but having the bad vibe before I have entered or even on the way there.
Another occasion saw me walk away from the door of a party I had been really looking forward to (I was 18) because I knew that someone – maybe not me – was going to be seriously hurt. A friend that went into the party was shot that evening because of some ‘local estate’ issues.
OBEs have always fascinated me and I think it’s possible that it’s an ability that is latent in all of us. I read a book yonks ago – wish I could remember the title – and the guy in that talked about a sense of dread that he first had to overcome before he could project himself. It was a while before he could achieve it and he made it sound as if there was a mental barrier – possibly self-imposed – that had initially prevented him. Although he didn’t mention feeling the sensations that you had experienced maybe he went through something similar.
I like the idea of telling the sensations to fuck off to make them go away. Maybe you were addressing your subconscious directly in which case I can see that swearing would work just as well as a prayer. There is no outside agency to deal with – as I believe it’s something we can achieve on our own – so it’s not as if only certain words or phrases would work.
As for why you can only get so far with your recent attempts is a bit of a puzzler. If it is tied in with vibrational changes within our realm then maybe it’s too early. Perhaps it isn’t something you can reach yet because conditions within our frequency range aren’t met.
Possibly the fact that these events have begun to occur again and that they feel different from previous experiences is all part of a new spiritual age we are entering.
OBEs & lucid dreaming are something I have always wanted to experience. I’ve had 2 close calls with lucid dreaming that I spoilt by laughing during the dream and apart from consuming a huge quantity of mushrooms on a weekend jolly to The Dam and feeling like I was floating 6 feet above my head I’ve had no experience with OBEs.
Thanks for posting that, Gilly. I got all excited reading that on my itsy teeny mobile screen last night.
@Dub. Up yours matey. If I’d tried to post this on my mobile last night it would have taken freakin hours. Ner-ner
I never got round to doing it though 
