BTW...
Elissa Hawke hey thanks for the heads up Chad you gossip queen and Anomalous Woodsman thanks for coming to my rescue like a knight...i don’t mind, people need to talk about stuff... im so disappointed in the organisation that could have been great, Im happy to answer any questions and I like that people do care and are switched on to scrutinise where their money goes... they should be! ...the thing is my visa was up, but two weeks before I had to go, they told me I couldn't go LIVE after I had expressed solidarity with Sonia Poulton,, so that was the death knell for my efforts...censorship is unthinkable for me anywhere, anytime, and especially in TPV thats the whole reason I went to volunteer for them...I think its natural of people to be suspicious and I am suspicious while getting to know people... the money questions don't bother me, I saved on and off over the last few years working massage, yoga teaching, bar work, cooking, tourguiding, and always travelling cheap... is much cheaper than renting a house and having a car and everything you need in Australia.... sometimes making 20 bucks a day cooking and sometimes making 50 bucks an hour massaging, I dont care enough about money, hence I never have much but I want to die like Ghandi with just a pair of shoes {I will have to chuck about 50 pairs of shoes b4 then} I also got a small sum from my grandfather when he passed, and more times than I care to admit publicly, I "borrowed" money from my parents {they rescued me}... In the last four years I brooke my arm in USA, and my leg in Panama and I never have insurance... both times I got fixed for free... I really don’t know why except I guess hospital people don’t like to leave broken people screaming on the street....I told my Dad before I left travelling 4 years ago I'd rather suck cock on the street than stay in Australia working a conventional life~ this seems harsh, but it is almost true, and that small exaggeration has worked wonders when I have gone to Mum and dad, begging. My folks worked like bees all their life and SAVED and paid all their debts and now, have been very gracious with me. They often call me crazy and yet they love me unconditionally and have supported me any time I have been desperate which has allowed me to follow my whims and arts and projects which is the greatest gift I could never have even dreamed I would be worthy of, but, I feel the universe in its own way will support the true work I strive to do, and I also do whatever work I can wherevr I am to support myself, this means, supporting my own principles which include, trying to avoid paying taxes to the murderous governments, not selling my soul working for corrupt governments or corporations that are the part of the problem, also I really am one of those who likes to work for myself.... As for donations on my page, I have paypal set up but the link doesn't work, it's been up for a few months, I did have one beautiful fan {Hi Doogie} who emailed me to tell me he wanted to make a donation but the link was broken. That was about a month ago and I STILL haven't bothered to fix it as on some deep level I even have trouble taking his kind offer of a donation. I will fix it though as I must become independent, my folks are getting on and I should be looking after myself, and I spend about 8-10 hours a day researching, and writing for years now, so it is only natural that eventually that will pay off, I am writing a book too. In England the only two "jobs" I got lucky with was medical experiment or stripping and I couldn't bring myself to do either... I even set up a small massage space in a storeroom at TPV but it only lasted a few days then became the second studio, and the massages I did I didn't charge for anyway because of that aversion to money thing again. It is funny hearing people piece your life together with just a few facts... I am a comedian at heart so I have no shame, and anything people wanna say about me I've already spread for comedy purposes so that makes me feel free... I am currently 43 and staying in my parents spare room while I go for jobs and save a few bickies for the next flight out to yet another tent on a deserted beach in a "3rd world country" where I always feel so much happier....I should write a blog about what happened with TPV and I will just as soon as I get through about 400 million other things. Travelling you just do whatever jobs you can find, people pay each other for things they do for each other without the "permissions" and oversight of the governments, it is what people do. TPV was an exciting experiment for me, I wondered how long till it got compromised, there was a great potential there but I quickly see it turned in another direction. There's no hard feelings from me, I just couldn't stay on in good conscience. I still recognise that a few others were making great shows and screening goood info so I want everything to run it's course, each will follow their hearts and TPV will serve its purpose. I have been reflecting for a long time on its purpose. I will have to write that blog...
